because

birthday month is looming and
the numbers keep getting bigger

i received an invite for my 10 year high school reunion
already

how can i feel so old and so young
all at once?

the past year
has been enough, i'm ready for a break
may i take this year off?

in one year i
changed jobs
lost vision in my right eye and
suffered 6 months of terrible treatments that left me a lump and
aggravated an injury causing the 2 month long headache
learned my meemaw was ill and watched her slip away
i started my last hours of school
david's mom's illness began to get worse and
watched david ache
finished school

it is a lot. and where do i go from here
i'm tired and confused
unhealthy or not, i just want to get back to the way things were

my hair dresser/therapist - Darcy - reminded me that i can't look to society to tell me how to live my life. with her advice i've decided to make some changes, because i can't wait till i'm retired to live the life i want, even if i am "different" but mostly i need to take the jump

because i am different