my breath

I didn't decorate. I did get the turkey's put up and put glitter on some pine cones.

I keep thinking that maybe if I get the tree up I will find my holiday spirit.  I've tried advent devotionals, holiday movies, a LOT of emotional eating and so far nothing but a deep desire to just skip December altogether. I just want to get 2011 over with. It has been an awful year. Last year wasn't particularly great either.

I was watching Oprah's Life Class, the episode about finding joy. (Do you miss Oprah like I do?) She says that if you really can't think of anything to be joyful about
  stop
  close your eyes
  quiet the world around you and the thoughts inside you and
  breathe
  think of your breath filling your lungs

Because maybe life isn't good or even bearable but at least you have your breath. And that is a start to findng joy.

Sure - I'm missing the "meaning of Christmas". I know everything this season means. I just don't feel it.

I think that is ok.