Who am I?

Ok. So maybe this is something dumb to complain about but it really does bother me. I don't look like I am. Yeah this is the english major, writer, communicator blogging this rediculously flawed sentence. But seriously I hate that I don't look like who I am, what I am, what I am about. I think my image is boring and not me.

In high school I didn't want to stand out because my freshman year someone made fun of how I dressed; like to my face asked me why I dressed like I did. So after that I just wanted to fade into the back ground, and so I didn't do anything realted to "fashion." In college I just would never dress like the people I went to school with. Nothing against them, but I am not the kind of person to wear a skirt and high heels to class at 8 in the morning. I am way more edgy than trendy Dallas. I struggled trying to find my image.

Ok side note here. I am not saying that I want to become all consumed with what I look like. But it bothers me that I look young, and stupid and inexperienced, boring, plain and well everything that I am not. I just want people to look at me and know who I am, or have a better idea of who I am.

Now I am stuck in this jeans and t-shirts kind of trend that just sucks. I want to be so much. I want to be Greenwich Village, geek-chic, writer- sophistocated, a little bit rock, but not trendy. I want people to see the real me. I want people to see the intelectual, creative, fun, spontaneous, beautiful and complicated woman I am. Right now I think people see boring, disinterested, closed off, stuffy and the list could go on. I want to change my hair, and glasses, and make-up and shoes. I want to wear accessories, and get a tattoo... ok maybe I am taking it too far.

I am really just bored and want a change. I want to feel good about my self for a change.