Letting Go.

Another year has gone by since my Juni's passing. Unlike last years post, I do not find my self crying at the thought of her. Although her death is still a dark moment in my life I let go of the pain of losing her, but still hold on to how much I loved her.

I lost her at the most difficult part of my life, when I thought the skies couldn't any more black and my chest any more heavy with burden. As I lost her I couldn't imagine why I had to say goodbye to the one thing that still gave me joy in this life.

But little did I know that joy would return to me. As October comes I remember that day my dad called me to tell me the news, but I also remember that November marks my anniversary of finding Abbey and November is Rigby's birthday. And Abbey and Rigby have brought a happiness back to me that I thought was buried with my Junnipurr.

She wasn't just a cat to me. She was my friend, support and she needed me. She was the most beautiful cat I have ever seen and had a personality to match her stunning beauty. I loved her.

So it seems that there will be moments in life where your heart will break, but you will be ok.

Fly Away- Poe

It makes sense that it should happen this way
That the sky should break,
and the earth should shake
As if to say: Sure it all matters but in such an unimportant way

As if to say: Fly away, sweet bird of prey
Fly fly away
Nothing can stand in your way Sweet bird,
if you knew the words I know you'd say:
fly, fly away

It makes sense that it should hurt in this way
That my heart should break, and my hands should shake
As if to say: Sure it don't matter except in the most important way

As if to say: Fly away, sweet bird of prey
Fly fly away I
won't stand in your way Sweet bird,
if you knew the words I know that you'd say:
fly, fly away
It makes sense that it should feel just this way
That you slowly fade and yet still remain
As if to say: Everything matter in such an invisible way
As if to say:
It's O.K.
Fly...away

So I let go of my grief and say goodbye to my kitty. But I will never let go of how much I loved her and still do. Because it is ok.