One More Goodbye

Today is a sad day. It is the one year anniversary of my sweet Junipurr's passing. It has been a hard year of missing her. I love her still. Her space could never be filled in my life and I still have not made it to where I can think about her without crying.

She passed suddenly on a wednesday night. I was at church and as I was leaving I felt angry and frustrated and cried all the way home. I thought I was just stressed out and having womanly mood swings. I cried to my friend Brianne and told her that I was having an emotional breakdown. The next day something lifted my spirits that was most surely a gift from Juni. The stray kitties that would sometimes sleep on my porch were all there to kiss me. I emailed my mother to tell her about my bad day and the kitties that had made it better. Little did I know my sweet was already gone. My father called me that night and told me. That was the worst pain and a really hard night.

It is also a reminder of our other cat who left us just before that, Blackie aka Pookie. It seems almost cruel to lose them both. But I write this blog to honor them. Their spirits were so kind and generous and so loving. Blackie was with us for a long time and had grown into her quirky personality. She drooled and licked fingers and had a... unique meow. But I loved Pookie. She was a great napping partner and I miss watching her frolic in our backyard in Bellaire. The greatest thing about Blackie was her BIG miracle. She had disappeared and we feared the worst and we were moving soon. But Blackie came home! I never hugged her so hard. Juni came when I could not have been anymore dorky and stuck in middle school hell. She was my best friend and the most beautiful, photogenic cat you have ever seen. Juni loved to play with bottle caps, squish into boxes and eat my hair, yes eat my hair. I wish I had more time with her, but the time we did have was more than special.


I loved my sweet Juni. And I hope her little spirit is happy and knows how much I love her. She was a wonderful cat and changed my life. She gave me so much happiness and I love her for it.

Here You Me (for Juni)

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
God wouldn't let it live.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

-jimmy eat world