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We want what we want when we want it without out mayo and tomatoes.
A couple of weeks ago we were having unseasonable warm weather and people groaned because it is January. But a month ago when it was cool the same people groaned because it was "too cold". Either we complain about no seasons or the change in seasons, no matter what it is never just right.
Change is like that.
Some changes are painful, push and tug at you.
Some changes are slow and natural.
Some changes are violent.
Some changes are exciting and welcomed after celebratory dinners and hopefully cake.
It would be nice if all change was easy and desired, but most change is difficult.
This week I expected to be struggling with the pain of missing MeeMaw, especially today. Yet, I am surprised with the peace of today. I miss her a lot-- MeeMawisms, and MeeMaw treats, MeeMaw news and MeeMaw smell.
Something about her death changed me.
I watched her fight and desire life so intently. And I listened to her wisdom while she faced death.
Timing is something I am not good at but God is. I lost MeeMaw a year ago, but gained a part of myself. And I will never go back to fearing life. I will always desire and fight for a good life, be fearless of change, and take advantage of time.
She told me over and over not to be sad as her little body gave out, that everything will be ok.
And it is.
Everything is not the same.
But everything is ok and just as it should be.
1 comment:
Analee,
So very, very true. God has given you wisdom beyond your years. Yes, on the 25th, I remembered different bits of that sad and dark day. And to hold together, I kept reminding myself, that Memaw's spirit never wore out, but her body did. And that she just didn't belong here in that body anymore. And that Jesus really was waiting for her with a brand new one and that she would have 20/20 vision and could enjoy life again. It was just us that would have the adjustment to make, not her. I love your last two sentences. Everything is not the same, but everything is ok and just as it should be. Amen.
luv,
tia Kay
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