Step 1- List accomplishments big and small
+Completed a fiction workshop
+Have 1 draft of a short story
+Lost weight
+Won a promotion to a better job than the one I lost out on in 2009
+Walk/jogged 2 5ks
+Found a consistent retailer for Post Trail Mix Crunch (otherwise known as God's Cereal)
+5 dollar turquoise headboard
+Uh I dunno, a little thing like our HONEYMOON!
+Had Chris, Jeni and Logan down for the first time
+China dresser (5 year anniversary present) AND got the china and table linnens in it!
+Started and completed 2 courses- 2 closer
+Organised my art closet
+Painted Michmanion's front porch
+Found healing for my headaches and eye
Step 2- List what gave you pleasure
+Kitties- Abbey and Rigby loving their new house
+Twin time- turning 2, playing at Gigi's, hugging MiMi, hearing my name from their little mouths
+Beginning to write again
+New camera (Nugget)- allowing myself to feel creative
+My new job- nerdy and loving it
+Waco Zoo with Racsos
+Camping at Double Lake
+Beatles Rock Band
+Sunroom
+Cruise- watching David eat, power snorkeling, hot tea and a show, peaceful in Gran Turk
+New down pillows
+Writing Brianne
+David getting his FINAL discharge letter!
Step 3- List disappointments, unfulfilled expectations, thwarted intentions, sources of displeasure
+MeeMaw's health
+David's mom's health
+My vision
+Shots- bruises, paint, swelling, discomfort
+Headaches
+Struggles with university bureaucracy
+Gaining all the weight back
+Not cooking... ever
+Not calling Leah every week
+Not calling Jeni every week
+Not calling Christi every week
+Not being a very good friend
+Not seeing Edie, Logan, and Rex
Step 4- Who do I need to forgive
(keeping that private)
Step 5- Who do I need to thank
+Mel- for lifting me up everyday and walking very very slow with me
+Mom- always my best friend and first email in my inbox every morning
+David- taking orders, putting up with all my stuff, watching me cry and struggle and never holding it against me
+Daddy- always looking out for me
+Drs- for healing
+242- friendship and understanding
+Abbey and Rigby- taking care of me while I was so ill
Step 6- Last thoughts about 2010
I like the idea of "in progress", the idea that I am not yet finished. 2010 has been pretty awful and I don't anticipate 2011 to be the best year of my life with the present health of both my precious MeeMaw and MIL Mary. I've been tested physically with some difficult trials, but made my way out. I've been tested emotionally as taking courses has open some wounds I would have preferred to stay hidden.
But through out this difficult year, I returned to church. Although, my relationship with God is not perfectly resolved, but I think God just asked me to show up and allow Him to work in His time and His way. And so I did and so I wait.
Because I am
still in progress.
2 comments:
Yes! we are all "in progress" and I'm glad you shared your end of year exercise. I do pretty much the same thing every year--part of my Advent practice. Wishing you well (literally & figuratively) and happy the New Year.
Analee,
I decided to catch up on your blogs. I've gotten behind. I laughed out loud watching that clip from Joe vs. the Volcano( a greatly underated movie, in my opinion). Then I cried reading your blog about Memaws 91st birthday. And I identified with your feelings about this Christmas being "different". I tried to give myself permission to let it be different this year, but it still has such sad edges to it. Your lists for the past year- reminded me I need to reflect some, but instead we are going to a movie to escape a little. Herb says I need it. We are going to see Gulliver's Travels. One movie I HIGHLY recommend is THE KING'S SPEECH. But Herb said I needed more of an escape so off to Gulliver we will go.
Luv from your Tia Kay
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